Its now 1 week since the passing of Sarah. I just don't know how to begin to tell my story. Eventhough its been a week, sometimes when I drive to work or from work or just sitting down doing nothing and I think of Sarah, my tears will just flow.
Eventhough I myself have seen her waving good bye and smiling to me during one of the prayers but still I can't seem to be able to accept that she has gone from this good earth.
Maybe this is also coupled with my emotional state at the moment. Everyday waking up is like an agony. At times, I ask that my life be taken too. But I know that's wrong and sinful but truely, have you ever walked about as though you're without a soul? I do. Almost constantly I am in this state.
Making it worse, the time at work just passes so slowly - always so draggy. I dont' know which is worse, being too busy untill you brains is about to burst or having too much time in hand that you actually write the interval of hours in a paper and striking each hour off as the hour come to meet you.
Dad will be going tomorrow to see the doctor. There is an arteri which is 100% blocked. So I can assume my dad is very nervous after the case of Sarah. Well, just have to pray.
I was invited to watch Kitaro's concert at Gentings tomorrow. Hmmm.. Well i was informed to Dress nice. whatever that definition is. Funny thing is I shop but I still dont' really have nice clothes hahaha. Hmmm...
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